Abstract
Objective
to explore women's experiences of labour and birth in the context of a termination of pregnancy for fetal abnormality in the second trimester of pregnancy.
Design
meta-synthesis of 10 qualitative studies which included the experiences of 581 women. Data analysis was informed by van Manen's four lifeworld existentials (lived body, lived space, lived time and lived human relationships) and focused only on women's experiences of their labour and birth when terminating a pregnancy in the second trimester for fetal abnormality.
Key findings
eight themes were generated by the analysis. In my head: a storm of emotion reflected the lived or felt space. In this space women make meaning of the experience. Too late to turn back time and Living and escaping the moment considered lived time; it is lived time that enables a woman to reinterpret who they once were and who they are becoming. The existential concept of lived body represented the women's physical or bodily presence and was reflected in the themes; The language of labour: un-describable torture, The meaning of pain; punishment and protection and Being a mother in the space where birth meets death. Relational or the lived human relationship is reflected in See me… talk to me…hear me… be with me and Sorry baby. These themes describe the women's lived sense of others in the interpersonal space that they share with them.
Key conclusions
the findings of this meta-synthesis provide insight into how emotionally and physically traumatic a woman's labour and birth experiences can be in this context. Women wanted to spend time with their baby constructing lasting memories that they could hold onto and share. They needed acknowledgment that their baby existed and their loss was tangible and real. What happened within the space of the relationship women shared with care providers was seen as vital, especially when respectful and dignified interaction was experienced. The women's need for human contact and support through their experience was also seen as critical.
Implications for practice
the need for greater understanding and acknowledgement of the woman's experience by all caregivers is required. Woman-centred and situation sensitive care provision should be prioritised. Further research that acknowledges and prioritises the feminine voice and the lived experience of women is required.